its so boring being at shop.its okay la. at least can use internet.but there isnt much people here. and i'm really lacking of sleeping. didnt went out with friends this week. to chiwen. i cant tag at your blog cause shop internet sucks.anyway, i didnt say anything to make you feel worst.i'm just stating facts and facts. if you think that lieing makes you feel better then what randy said is true. stop living in your dream world. you nag about the hp bill when you are outside for? it will only spoil your mood. and you cant do anything right? since you want me to lie, i will lie to you if that makes you feel better. i guess you should start facing facts rather than trying to act smart lo. thats not being mature yeah. by the way, this is recent. you come ecp and want to buy food for me, then i eat already what you want? and its not i not surprise or anything. what you want me to do? shout loudly say"wah! baby, you are here?" when i already know the moment you say what i want to eat. i mean. what's there to be angry about? as if i dont appreciate. its just not surprising to me what. cause i already know. anyway. thanks.yeah. my cash is running low too. LOL. waking up early morning like 7am to open shop and sit cab down. cause i cant wake up at 6.30 to sit bus. i dont know why. i slept like 10pm last night. too tired i guess. thats about it. OMG. i really missing my guys.anyway, i dont think we will last long if you keep up with your childish acts. you keep getting angry for lame reason. and when i piss off and you are okay. you want me to change my mood in a sec. and its not i keep suan-ing you or what. i just want you to be smarter and more tong si. you see. even andrew and jerry laugh at the stupid things you say. and chiwen, if i didnt treat you right, you think your sis will support me? cause we know what 'kun' are you. seriously, i trying my very best not to get angry when you are angry at stupid things. thats my goal. for now.
missing you idiots! =)
OMG. i just love this 2 songs. LOL.
shall not eleborate. =D
oh yeah. got a new facebook! i just addicted to the games that xm played. damn fun. LOL.
cant wait for my next dota match with randy and gang. havent been touching dota for like xxxxdays.
thanks to them, am kind of itching for dota. oh yeah. working at inline ECP soon. kind of boring. but what to do. nothing to do so just work and earn some bucks. LOL.
recent news!
andrew broke up with hilary. well. he told me he cant stand her and all. but from my point of view andrew. no hard feelings. i just think that she has been trying to change and yet you think its not enough. like what you told me, you been trying to find all the wrongs she's been doing. well, you said you want to broke up and yet you keep pissing off because she treat as if nothing happens. i mean. if you want herto beg you not to go and all, its abit too much right? thats how you are telling me. and she didnt treat as nothing happen. its like something important just went missing from her life. get it andrew? am not siding anyone. am just stating my point of view. i think now that both of you have broken up. you two should stop puting blame on anyone and do some soul searching. it takes 2 hands to clap. anyway, i'm just 18 and you guys are like 50 if add up together. so i guess you should be able to handle things someway, better than me. like i said, i'm just stating my point.
anyway, to STTR TEAM. FULL TEAM! can we catch up before chinese new year? LOL. it will be just like old times eh? hahaha. i cant be bothered if SOME people say i'm childish or whatever. i have finally understood. say i'm childish all you want. cause it keeps me young and healthy. LOL. baby, am not saying you kay? my other friends. =D
last but not least. i love you baby.
i hope i can buy for you the cute little flower every month. =D
be mature eh. dont get angry. think how to solve problems before you start blowing your mind.
always think. just like i always think one day you will be my dream body. LOL.
goodnights.
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well, kind of lazy and busy to blog these few days.
hmm...catch up with jy,sherwin,bert and gf.
watched chiwawa with them like 2 days ago.
haha. there was 11 of us. hmm..could be more.
anyway, chiwen watched already but she joined in anyway. played with best friends and had a whole lot of laugh.
today was baby and me anniversary. 1 month. still long way to go dude. LOL.
well, i must say. this is a tough 1 month. have totally no idea how the rest is going to be.
i guess she really loves me alot. the question is. can i hold on to you?
we should really stop our nonsense already eh.
went EN to eat. EN is basically a jap restaurant. and i dont know hwy chiwen likes it.
the food there is expensive and sucks. really. i was hoping to eat cold soba.
but they dont have it. cause its a grill jap restaurant.
and their grill food aint wonderful. please. must chiong cold soba with buddy when he books out.
LOL.
oh yeah. she wrote me a card. i realised that when i reached home. cause i was searching for my sunglasses in her bag. and she was so panic when i touched her bag. so i guess something is amiss.
and soon found a LOVE LETTER for me in her bag. LOL. and the irritating me started to come out. cause i was eager to read what she wrote. whereas, she doesnt want me to read in front of her. (shy) LOL. and i got her a last minute present cause i was busy nua-ing in bed. haha. i got her a little fake flower. like those cartoon flower.well, i must say. she doesnt like it. =( but i found it cute and something special. therefore, i just shut my ears up. LOL.
CSO has bee a burden to me. am left with 60hours. and my dad was kind enough to give me $5/hour. so am gonna claim $300 from him after my CSO is completed. am onto a project. painting at a childcare center. kind of fun. hopefully, i could complete it fast enough eh. i want to buy agnis B cap. super nice can. and it cost $175. sick right? but am buying. baby say she sponsor me either shoe or bag. so i might be getting a aldo shoe. haha. RANDY is gonna be so jealous. shall go to lalaland already. got to go CSO tml. byebye!
something wrong with the photos that are posted on baby lappy.
guess i got to go home to edit.cheers!
the beauty of my life.
saw one of my old friends blog.
and was kind of shock. 3 years. omg.
i really wish them all the best. haha.
i have been thinking about lots of things tonight.
and i realised that i'm kind of a idiot.
i will try to be the a gentle boyfriend and i shall have a low self-esteem.
i think that would be best. =)
anyway baby. i really hope you can slim down. hahaha.
but if you cant. i will still love you.
and we should stop doing that kay?
ps. i love you ng chiwen.
went out with gang yesterday.
wanted to buy a black bag. but couldnt find any nice one.
guess i got to search and search and search.
sick of shoppin. LOL.
met up with JY and all.
the 11 of us catch a movie. haha.
pretty lazy to blog now. cause i am tired after watching batman begins.
nice show i must say.
photos soon.
byebye.
i should just die. to prove i love you.
you still appear in my dreams J.how often i wish that you would do the same.but its all just one sided.now i got a new life ahead of me.lots of problems to overcome.but i guess everyone has their own problems.sometimes, its good just to live in your own world.not worrying about anything.just YOU.all i could do now is to be happy for you.but if one day you ever need me.i will always be there.to hold you.to help you.to lift you.and all i ever wanted.is for you to remember me.=) i miss you J.and to the fuckhead who thought it was some girl.i am telling this to jingyang.you piss me off.
LOL. was looking at one of my beloved blog and found this. so just take it for fun and laughter.
i guess i must find something interesting to do during the weekend. its getting boring.
sometimes you really amazed me.and i got to try to get over you.
i think that you should stop reading the stupid mars and venus book. if reletionship is based on books. then what for man try so hard to get her?if a book helps everything. then what for humans work so hard to earn money?i think you should just use your brain and your feelings rather than using a book.i think its damn stupid.so you read afew things in the book. and here comes all the weird shit. anyway, its your life. and i wont let a bladdy book be a guild to our relationship.i just think its damn stupid. and i guess many people think so too.
andrew told me some stuff about him and hilary. i didnt wish for the day to tell him the same things as he said to me. i was really depressed when you said i treat you like shit and all.
my ex girlfriend used to told methis as well. but when i am with other gir and did the same. she told me, why you treat me differently from her? then i cant be bothered to say anything.
i seriously dont find myself mistresting you, maybe sometimes i was joking with you. yah. people might find that insulting like you. but even my friends dont find it insulting because we are all friends. whats more you are my girlfriend.
if i said that you are fat and stupid and all. and i'm serious about it. why did i bother being with you?
you said i always leave ou alone when you are angry, but when i come and talk to you, please you. you ignored me. then what you want me to do? i a a guy afterall.
and if you really love me, why say that i am a burden? if i am a burden, why cry over me? i just dont understand. and if just because i irritated you, you get blowed up. then what is that? you didnt even tell me to stop and all. you just laugh with me. am i able to read your mind?
dont make me regret falling in love with you please. i really dont know what am suppose to do.
if i was a burden to you.
and i hate being a burden to someone.
espcially someone important to me.
if you say i treat you unwell.
then what for i breach my probation just to get closer to you?
why did i querral with my mum because of you?
you said you were disappointed. i am more disappointed.
all i wanted was just for you to be happy.
in the end. all i got was.
maybe am just not good enough for you.
if just a small thing and you make it so big.
i could querral with you everyday.
i seriously dont know what to do.
should i let you go?
because i'm a burden.
or?
who can help?
no one.
why?
because this world is so unfair.
i'm starting to believe in karma
can i make a wish for the day?
get bang by a car while skating later. =)
i cant handle anymore.
i guess i already tried my best to please you.
and i have done my best.
so sorry. i couldnt be any better than that.
i guess what you ask of me to do and tolerate is too high.
i just and ordinary guy living a ordinary world.
am not some superman who could do whatever, whenever you want or need.
everytime, you just tell me you are dissappointed.
you are the one to blow your temper.
and yet i have to deal with that shit?
is it fair to me?
you just kept your bladdy mouth shut and expect me to read your mind?
and everyday you say i treat you like shit, pinch me, beat me.
did i say anything?
and yet. all i was wass doing was to make everyone happy. sorry.
i dont know what you want.
SOONER OR LATER
BORED AT HOME!lol. although i just came back like 2 hours? but i was in another home.didnt feel like going out this few days. i just feel that singapore doesnt have many fun places.anyway, played mahjong with jeff and baby yesterday. i wanted to play 3 person only cause can make big damn fun.and i kept making big that i didnt guard at all. =( ended up losing $20.LOL. i and chiwen the money can kap one. so we lost $20 together. then didnt went for my CSO today. slept like a bladdy pig. woke up like 5?baby went clubbing today cause she let me play mahjong yesterday. =(but was glad that the bouncer didnt let her in. thanks bouncer. stop using your jesus IC to get into club. LOL.should stay at home and spend somemore time with me. =Dalright. shall go watch movie or something. byebye.
well....met up with toh today. pass him my formal wear clothes. cause he need to wear everytime he book out. we decided to eat at EN actually. but the rain prevent us from going because we got to walk a distance. so ended up going douby to eat FISH and CO. but he frickle minded. then went to eat sakae. haha. we met darren and his gf at arcade. then play afew lame things and headed home-ed.chat with my buddy quite a few stuff. haha. then we want to go oversea soon. but i dont think going la. i running low on cash. haha. and he told me most stupid thing. go apply credit card. haha. then i told him. HA! my gf will swollow up the card. but alright la. baby helping me to save this few days. got a little improvement. but ytd thing really make me boil-ed up. freaking retard i think. shall not talk about it anymore. later that PMS girl go crazy. =)oh yeah. we are fine already. i think. but next time comfirm will quarrel again. haha. we shall see how it goes this time. oh yeah. didnt see her new haircut. dont know how she will look like. hmm..i will just keep it in my heart this time. =DDshe coming my house later. got to borrow her lousy laptop to print stuff. then after that head to her house. i brought shampoo, wax, toothpaste, toothbrush along too. HAHA. miss using my own toothbrush and shampoo. dont worry baby. i got 2 toothbrush at home. shall go xbox awhile. very long didnt xbox-ed. bye!
AM I LOUSY FRIEND AND A BOYFRIEND?GONNA SHUT DOWN MY HP SOON...
THIS WORLD IS WEIRD!
you, kj and friends.
i refuse to believe in karma.
firstly, i help jy take the blame for theft.
ended up? he treat his gf more important than anything.
secondly, i treat kj so damn bloody good.
ended up? he treat me as if i'm nothing.
thirdly, i treat my 4 friends like gold.
ended up? they treat me as if i'm just passing by.
forthly, i treat chiwen like my everything. giving up time for my other friends.
ended up? she say i treat her like shit.
what is this!?
the reason why i keep staying your house even thought i have probation
cause i want to spend everyday with you.
cause i cant stand my family. shouting and giving me attitude everyday.
have you realised that even thought i was out and my VPO came. i still dont bothered?
have you realised that i love to joke and make fun of everything because i dont want to be serious all the time?
so what if i didnt say sorry to you? does it really matter so much? is not like i have another girl outside or i have done something that is hard to forgive. you are still young. you dont have to worry about so many things. i'm a guy. i have alot of other shit to think about. have i ever throw my temper at you first? just because i write some stuff in my blog you get angry. have you ever think before you get angry?
if you want a fight BRING IT ON.
HENG! almost forgot i got to meet my officer today. =Dsian. probation really sucks. HMG! faster go in army then no need care already.oh yea. a text msg from ng chiwen and me.chiwen: cant you just say sorry?daryl: i already said sorry to you just now. chiwen: then why must you throw my wallet on the table?daryl: angry mahs. then i didnt know you things will fly. so since already fly just act angry only lo.chiwen: LOL. WTF!yah. anyway, i'm still piss at her. she told me she flirting. i thought she was kidding. but i guess she really flirting cause she just called me and ask where is alex shop(a hair stylish). i think her friend edmond, boonchew or dont know who she is with. sian. home alone. wanted to bring her go eat EN. but she reply so late. then kp me. aiya dont care her already.i think the best way when you qurral with your girlfriend is just act angry first. i used to do that to my past girlfriend. no matter who right or wrong, just act angry first. then they will be scare. HAHAHA. but that stupid pig face. i angry, she get angrier. LOL. then i choose not to care. today also not my fault i dont know why i say sorry for fuck. i just kidding say she look damn ugly then she blow up. siao. must admit the fact and face reality. LOL..i hope she doesnt read. LOL. anyway, today class cancel. postpone to friday. CSO haven start yet. so might be able to work for the time being. LOL..tml meeting BESTI pass him stuff. cause he need the clothes to book out. better not make spoil my shoe and belt. hahaha. then we going EN to eat. hahaha. without that pig face. cause she working. tml again home alone. haha. byebye!
HMG! haven been blogging lately. been at her house for like 3weeks already. LOL. think i abit siao already. anyway, i spent like so much already. got to cut down on the princess. today she got a scolding from me in the afternoon cause she whole day only want to go eat restaurant. ended up eating pastamania. LOL! then at night kana scolded by me again. or sort of quarrel la. cause she was crying at my place. then i ask her whats wrong she didnt want to say. but i roughly guess is because of her mom. but as we slept. i felt that maybe i did something wrong. but i was bloody tired. so i cant be bothered to think anymore and go to bed. wanted to play mahjong. but ruth says she is tired from work and want to sleep. and when i come to my 2nd home. i found her watching naruto from chi wen. haha. anyway, she sleeping downstairs now. so left andrew and chiwen. dont know they want to play anot. i dman entu about mahjong. i think without mahjong i can die. haha. cause i'll get addicted to it once i start playing. HMG! i hope they play later lo. =(( anyway, maybe tml go hiking or rock climbing. depending on andrew and hilary. hilary the face got rashes. sian. i guess tml might be another boring day. wah. if chiwen likes to play mahjong hen shiok already. haha. everyday mahjong only. i dont mind actually. anywa, just hope they play later. bye!
i dont know why there is a hole in the middle. haha. anyway. cool eh the pic? LOL. was waiting for pig face to go skate. damn bored. haha. that nicole damn funny. run home to go msn and talk with me. kids ah. hahahaha.
baby. am sorry about ytd. i finally have tasted the feeling of losing you. although its my own thinking. but it feel terrible. i didnt thought i would cry so much in front of so many people. and for no reason. i vomitted my blood out for the first time. the feeling was unbearable. i guess after all. losing you is the last thing i want now. sorry hilary for spoiling you and andrew's night. LOL.i hope going escape today would be more fun. haha. and baby. we got to mahjong someday. =)BTW, the 4 of us went to eat thai food yesterday. aint very good. lol. lazy to upload photo. waiting for that girl to blog hen leech the photos. kk. cheers!
what are friends for? i often asked myselfwell...knowing your friends take time. i really cant be bothered with my friends anymore.you treat them like the last friend you will ever have, but they treat you as just a nobody.some friends of mine keep thinking i have ill intention towards them.others think i want to bring a fight to them and play some lousy pranks.i really dont want to be stress out because of them. so i choose not to be bothered.i want to spend time on people who treat me the same way as i treat them.who doesnt think that i have ill intention or bring a fight to them.i just want to enjoy every moment and outing with them.but i guess only randy understands me in the end. if you guys want to think that the post is i write. then so be it okay?cause if there is no trust and thinks that i have ill intention. then let our friendship ends here.its so sad to hear that word coming from you.i thought our friendship was strong.but i guess its my own thinking after all.if one day you need someone.i promise you.i wont be there.