back from the rough world. hmm...nearly didnt want to go work today. dont know why was so tired. the JESLIN text me in the morning. cause i text her at night and she was sleeping. her text was like my coffee in the morning. felt happy. haha. if every morning she text me on her own free will i think i will run to work man. haha. anyway, today was so busy at office. help JOLYN do all the sorting out of invoice of suppliers then do filing. i did all the work until i forgot the time to go home. haha. then went stright home hoping she was online but never. starting to miss her. and obviously i'm gonna change my password cause she knows and i wouldnt want her to see this post. haha. anyway, smile girl.
hey folks. hmm..just another day of work at the office. its pretty cool. i'm just 17 turning 18 and i am already working with like what? 20plus 30plus people. taking the same bus with them every morning? but its just 2weeks. keke. and i realised something today. i realised that all the people that i'm working with is all female. there is no male. i'm like WTH. then i quickly concentrade on my work and ignore other things. luckily i sat behind my cosuin JOLYN at the corner. haha. bought breakfast for her sister and her and cause me quite a lot. bloody hell. then they forgot to return me. i also lazy go ask from them. after work i was damn piss. my earhole closed. cause hotel line cannot wear ear stuts. i search the whole marina and none of the shop do piercing except for GOLDHEART. $35! crazy. somemore at the hotel i managed to reopen my hole by poking it inside and by the time it reach the back, the ear stut bent. =( so i met up with my mother at raffles city since she was there. ate and headed home. then we went kovan to get my ear piercing done.
another thing. i was sitting in the car and listening to one song. too serious too soon. and thought of someone. kind of miss her. but....just hope that every night before she sleeps, my name or face will cross your mind. and every morning when you wake up, my name will appear in your hp. but i will just work work work and let nature take its course cause i aint got much faith left =) smile girl. cause i care.
hmm...went to the army medical check up in the morning and had to go to SGH to follow up my check up on 11th of march. sian. then cab back home and waited forRANDY. cause he was going out with his friends to look for job and i tag along. went to taka job express or something. then i and RANDY just fill up the form for fun. haha. then we comleted our diploma so different from WILLIAM and ANTHONY. our job offers are much better. haha. the guy will send our application. if i'm working with RANDY then i work. if not then i will continue at skatesports. anyway, skatesports crew many of them had gone to inline culture so yea. and i think JASMINE is working at SS again. hmm...then we went ceni to play the xbox 360. pretty fun. then ate pepper dinner(suppose to be pepper lunch) well..headed home. my stupid mother not letting us play mahjong on weekdays. wth man. sian. thats about it. oh yea. RANDY ask me play neopets again. =( i'm missing YOU! smile.
i realised that being lonely is so boring. friends are fucking up sep that KJ. dont know what's his problem man. because of 1 girl he like that. useless bum. so far. the only friends i liked to go out with is them. but slowly peeling off. =( well, i dont really like to have many friends, i think its so troublesome. so i tend not to talk to them and slowly, we two are strangers. haha. i realised hp contect like have 200 people. but i think i only talking to 10 people. i dont knowwhere i get the rest from. anyway, i so scared to fall in love again. althought i know there's ups and downs but still afraid. HUIFANG is really one my best girlfriend i had. maybe i have other nice gfs but i did not really appreciate them and maybe i was young at that time. imagine my ex before huifang are all like 1month? then i say byebye. guess i have taken reletionship seriously when i meet her but it didnt worked out. i also dont know why am i saying this thought. been thinkin of her now and then but i think i got to move on with life. its not that i dont love her but its just that we reached a stage where our reletionship cannot move on due to some reason and i rather give it up then just carrying it on. but you hav brighten up my days and i have changed abit for the better. smile.
tired tired tired. feling so exhausted. althought i didnt work much at ritz calton but maybe there's nothing much to do thats why i feel tired. did alot alot of filing. there is like about 15 stacks to put put accordingly to its number and about 20cm thick? wah. i did that whole day. then went smoke break. haha. my cousin was like "what the hell, faster faster" haha. then i told her "study also need smoke break what" haha.then she ended up accompanying me. then my desk was behind her. super tired today but overall was okay lah. there's free lunch too! haha. after work wanted to catch L CHANGES THE WORLD. but cousin had alot of things to do so i run first and stupid RANDY TOH no money. fucking cheapskate. i said i sponsor him $2.50 he just had to come out another $5. then ended up heading home. bus was packed as usual. hate taking bus. i want to get my liscence as soon as possible. well well..skatesports called me too. got to take my check on wednesday. running low on cash too. smile.
was super tired recently. sleep for 2 hours yesterday. becasue of mahjong of course. haha. the game is addictive. haven eaten much until ytd. went my gradma house and ate. my gun and throat still hurts but its better after drinking a ton of the medical tea. liang cai...and i kept losing mahjong over at my grandma house. sian. then my aunty all ask me go temple pray cause i'm horse and this year it isnt very good for me. they told me on the new year but i told them that i didnt believe this type of things. but well. i have nothing to say now. luck hasnt been very good. and everything i have done is falling apart. just let it be. then after grandma house came home and played mahjong again at 12am? lost 5 bucks. then after the game i realised i only have 2 hours of sleep before i go work. in the end, i didnt went work. sorry hafis....was seriously tiring myself out. spend the whole day at home today. sleeping of course. working at riz calton tml.
sometimes, i feel life is so boring. when i was a child all i can do is study study study. get all the beating from my parents. and keep studying like there is no life left. we study all the way till we are like what? 20? come out work then? life is basically study, work and die. no study=no work. no work=no money. no money=end of life. just feel that singapore forces the kids too much these days. and i finally realised that i hate singapore. everything goes up. ERP charges and all. then my neighbour told me that last time singapore bought their sand from indonesia was like $5(go by meters) then now its like $60. goes up $55. then i was thinking that singapore buy sand to built more condos. and imagine everything goes up and condos are like 2million pls now. how the hell are singaporeans going to buy? and singapore keep letting to blacks fuckers and forigners to work. then how the hell are singaporeans going to find a better job or at least a job? thats my theory of a fuck up sinagapore. smile.
wasnt in a mood these days. went court at 2.30pm and was sentence 18months probation(1 and a half years), 10pm to 6am and 80hours COS. 0_0 mum was nagging before the sentence and i nag at her back. =) then there is is KPO INDIAN OFFICER. keep asking everyone what is the offence. none of his business man. headed tampines to meet JY. we talked alot. sat down at starbucks and a whole lot of nonsense just came out from both of us. pretty cool. something like a heart to heart talk. he told me what the did in CHINA. that the bastard KJ was master baking in each hotel they went. (total 5) sick ass. i'm pretty much distance from him after HUIFANG. cannot believe he is such a person. well, its okay. JY was trash in marvel VS capcom . i cannot wait to change my hp. hmm...my dad wants me to sign my own plan on my birthday. cause he thinks i'm richer day by day. wth can. i think when i change my hp. i will change my computer too. pretty old. then i will upload a whole load of pictures. anyway, i think now 2 people see my blog only. one is jeslin and geena. cause the rest dont know my password. and i pretty like to keep it a secret. only RANDY know. smile.
in my whole life, i have two regrets. first is that i didnt study hard when i was in primary 6. allmy basketball friends went to maris stella high but me? seperated from them adn when to a lousy school. montfort. i tried to get over it for a long time and came my second regret in life. is to be with her. i really love her alot but she didnt see that. we were once happy and carefree. didnt care what others say about us and had plans for our life. but it's all gone gone gone. i feel so lost now. i dont know how to get back on my feet again. i tried looking strong everytime i fall. but this time i really couldn't get back on my two feet. its so hollow inside. why couldnt she be mature about us and all. am i not a good boyfriend? am i not a caring boyfriend? am i not a thoughtful boyfriend? i did everything and all sort of things i never even do to a girl before. but why its never enough? you saw me wrongly. i am not happy at all. you didnt understand the pain i am going through now. i had to let you go because in 5 years time, we will still be the same. and that you counldnt understand. you keep saying your trying to change but its been so long and its bullshit. i didnt want to leave you at all but you keep fucking me up. i dont know what to do anymore. tml is my court and i feel like i'm in space wandering aimlessly. i have lost all faith. i have lost my soul. because i have lost you. i didnt hold you tight enough. and that i didnt blame you at all. call me a bad guy. call me bastard. call me whatever you want. but in the end. you will realise that its me who have lost everything because of you.
i dont know if i have made the right decision to let you go. but i wont go back to you. ytd was a terrible night. my tooth hurt like shit, my throat pain whenever i swollow my siliver down and i am so sad, so sad. many people will hink i leave because i dont like her..but is not. i love her always. its just its painful to be with her. RANDY understand. thats what he tell me. i have to let her go for both of us. hias. mood been really bad. my councilor coming to my house soon also. my tooth and throat really hurt like shit.
today was really GREAT! MY FRIENDS ARE BACK!!!!! WU NENG stayed over at my house. haha. i was playing mahjong and he was sleeping. i wonder if he is really asleep, its so noisy. ADAM,MEL,JASPER came my house. MEL wanted to do her homework but i didnt have microsoft words. so end up, she surf PORN! haha. edison scandal and all. sick. but i won beacuse i'm innocent and the other two boys keep looking. haha. sis and i won 90. yah. plaed till 6am then woke up at 10am to wake the bloody pig up. he bath 1 hour can. but today he bath for like 30mins. break record. and its the first time he woke up so early to go out beside school days. meet up with RANDY and watched PS: I LOVE YOU. i thought it was a boring show. but it didnt occur to me that the show was seriously damn touching. RANDY cried can? i almost but didnt. PHEW! then i wanted to go sing K but they wanted to play dota. boring game. KJ and BIG BIRD came later. its fun. the 5 of us hanging out together. its been so so long guys. but today not full team. short of SHIFU. fat bastard. didnt see him for few weeks already. then ate sakae tempanyaki for lunch and ajensan(spelling error) for dinner. didnt eat so much this few days until today. haha. headed home after dinner...so bored. mahjong soon! smile.
hey. back again. hmm..did alot of thinking today. was alone at home the whole day. and best solution to let me think clearly was being at home and door shut. but i was super dupa bored. luckily neighbour called to play mahjong. haha. playing soon. well, watched death note 1 and 2 too..freaking nice story. got to use alot of brains even watching the show. cannot believe some people are so smart in cracking cases. feel like become a police too. haha. but not a low ranked officer. and to the someone, i love you. FANG. dont keep pissing me off by having doubts. i did everything for you and because of you. i may be a fucking flirt or fucker or asshole, whatever people want to call. but i haved changed the past 1 year being with you. being with you let me realised somethings which cannot be explain. only i know. i just seriously hope you will have more common sense and be smarter. thats my wish for my birthday and my LIFE. i seriously cannot stand stupid people. well..thats all for today. smile.
REM. death note 2.
hey! happy valentine's day people! guess all the guys out there how's your wallet? haha. i'm like reporting a news. well..today took DEAR to vivo gold class movie. $100 can! but it was worth it lah. its damn fucking grand and nice lah. damn shiok. words cant express everything. haha. i pretty lazy to blog. uploaded some pics. have fun. smile.
my little monkey.
ME! ps: i anit a CAB.
$100 movie ticket.
us.
back again. well, it feels good to be special or needed once in awhile. but i'm kind of lazy when someone is needed by me. haha. been kind of boring this few days. gotta head home before 9pm, kind of bored. well, there's good and bad about it issit it. hmm..the bad thing is that, i cant shop till late or play till late as before. like till 4am? no more pubs or drinking sessions. haha. good thing is that i could be a good boy? spend more time with my parents. haha. but my dad is becoming more and more naggy as he grows. come back only and start nagging at me. just bear with me i guess. gangs coming back in like 2 more days? dont know if they bought anything back for me from china. missed them. haha. valentine days are trouble for guys. first, we had to think of so many 'bright and new ideas' on where to go and scond, we have to spend a bomb on the things. i spend like 100 bucks before the day can?! its crazy. RANDY say that i am foolish. haha. maybe, maybe not. but its something special that you got to feel it on your own and words cannot explain everything. even thought my girlfriend is not what i see in my 'dream' girl but i still love her alot. people say she is stupid, BTC, valgue, rough, but i guess like what my friend once told me. you get to see the good points she has too, that some girls lack of. not everyone is perfect. so even if some guy get a pretty girl or a understanding girl. but she has her good and bad points which some of us cant see. haha. OH YEA. i hate taking photos.(J) haha. smile.
this is a bastard child. (pancake) JY dog.
hey hey hey. haha. today went to DEAR grandma house take ang baos. fucking cheapo. all give little bit. maybe because i brin gmy sister along. then i left there earlier cause thought i was goin gmy grandma house already. but went my aunt house and was stuck there. fucking piss. and i lost like 100plus on blackjack can. my cousin got triple 7 and i have to pay 7 times. $42. super ex. then at last lost bout 80 cause i win mahjong abit. sian. today is a boring day. and most funny thing. FANG was so stupid.....i told her i losing 100plus, she told me to keep it up. wth. thats the result of BTC. i miss them....faster come back china bastard. haha. CNY is so boring..hmm...or am i the only one to find it bored? want to head down to sing K soon. anyone interested? lol. smile.
hey! realised quite a number of people came to my blog and read. haha. shall decide to post. toady new year is SO BORING can. ang bao so little. like peanuts. lucky got mahjong to entertain me. qin quite a bit from mahjong. ang bao really piss me off. i shall not go and collect ang bao. just make money from mahjong. think its a better way off. haha. valentine's day is coming. i find life is really boring. there's not much fun. maybe it is SINGAPORE that is boring. nothing to do in singapore. expenses all so high. the rich stay rich. the poor stay poor. i really miss my riches days. damn my grandfather. he is the cause of me now. idiot fucker. i know some people will think i am bad. but if you were me, you will also hate him. my dad treat him as gold. he treat my dad as shit after my dad lost his company. and because of who? my GRANDFATHER. bloody idiot. and my DEAR. hias. dont want to talk about it man. my friends seems to understand me so much better than her. my world is kind of half fuck. faster go army better. stay in camp and slack. maybe going in august. and i got probation can. fuking fatso played me out. 22nd feb going trial. my guess. 1 year. maybe mroe. sian. and my buddies in CHINA. arghs. missing them already. faster come back can? haha. well...nights. smile.
well, been busy and didnt have the mood to blog lately. i got probation now. fucking sian. 9pm must reach home. not sure if they will extend the time after my court on 22nd of feb. jy hearings tml. wish him luck. thanks metro for all the games lately, to kill my boredome at home. hmm..i wonder why are girls so funny. a better looking guy and a ugly guy. but she choose the ugly guy. weird. haha. yea.
anyways, its been a year with her. sort of a year. too many break ups to count so we decided to put it a year. haha. 27 of january. the second time we patch. hmm..i admit she kind of no common sense. but she has her pretty sides at times. CNY is COMING! my clothes are all pretty ready to FLASH! haha. goona wear at least 2k to visiting. haha. well..cheers guys. bye! smile.