haha. i am back. this few days was kind of lazy to blog. so didnt blog. ytd got some things from town and vivo then headed down to amanda's. we drink beeer but i didnt drink much cause i hate beer. makes you puke and grow beer belly. it was toally empty when we went there. there was like no customer at all and only us. then JY say got ghost. he saw a male ghost standing at the toilet. its quite true. cause amanda cannot open the toilet and no one in the toilet. then JY went to open. well, was scared at first. took out all the buddha stuff. but after awhile, KJ and I were happily singing K again. haha.
today went to pet shop at serengoon with JY to get a jap for his dog. then headed sengkang with DEAR to take money from RANDY. haha. we went to PS t watch national treasure. haha. not bad lah. still find part one nicer. anyway! i bought my CK BOXERS ALREADY!! haha. no pics lah. pretty expensive. haha. then came home. nothing special today. tata. smile.
Friday, January 11, 2008 ♥♥
haha...am back again! guess what bloggy. i woke up at 5am can!? cause my stupid mother was screaming at my sis then i got waken. fucking ass. i tried going back to sleep again but cant. so i decided to give DEAR a surprise by going to her house. she was suppose to meet me at my house then we take bus 100 to SENTOSA! but since i am already awake, just go to her house. haha. went PRIME to get some stuff before heading down to her house. then she was like shock to see me at the staircase. haha. we took mrt to SENTOSA. freaking long journey. haha. hmm.....SENTOSA SENTOSA, there is like nothing there can. i wanted to sun-tan but i cant seem to get tan!!! arghss....so we headed down to VIVO CITY to catch a movie after like 2 to 3 hours at SENTOSA. haha. watch AVP2 pretty boring. yah. i think AVP1 is nicer. but damn nice la. especially the part where the guy and girl were trying to make out at the pool. haha. SEXY MAN THE GIRL! haha. and YAH! i saw DEAR in her BIKINIS today. she was so shy can. haha. silly...then after movie headed back to my house cause i was freaking tired. haha. slept the whole journey to my home. haha. hmm...oh yea. i got this pretty cool ashtry. haha. its NICE! then slack my house till night and send DEAR to the busstop. haha. hmm..somethings DEAR has a really mindless brain. maybe i'm attracted to her because of this and dislike because of this. its complicated, but all is good. haha. i love you DEAR! ENJOY THE PHOTOS! smile.
SENTOSA CAM-WHORING. =)
THAT'S ME!
DEAR TOOK IT WHEN I WAS DOING MY ARTWORK. =)
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hey bloggy! am back again. LOL. just zac koom! SOLO SIAL! haha. hmm...guess what! i woke at at 5pm today. haha. slept at 7am ytd. seriously can sleep. was shiok that i woke up at 5pm. NO SENTOSA. i set my alarm clock and standard. cant hear it ring. then realised that it had rain earlier. so slept late also good. haha. then DEAR meet me at aljuned mrt at 6plus. JY also. went town to do some shopping. bought quite a number of stuff like, perfume, G-Star(JY) and DEAR high heels. bought others also. lazy to type all. haha. then after that went to eat steamboat with JY and DEAR at tampines. pretty nice. maybe cause i was freaking hungry. hhaha. ate alot...
heard some stuff about FAMOUS HANDGUN. haha. well, what to do. he is like that maybe a few years later he might change. haha. i am going SENTOSA with DEAR tml. rain rain go away. and starting work again on sat. haha. sian! well, cant wait for CNY. oh yea. my dip course, i failed 3. and must pay $100 to retake the 3 subjects. i paid $50 last time already. yea. each subject $50. haha. decided to carry on studies cause i might be able to handle the 3 subjects. haha. ARMY ARMY ARMY!!! hahahah. shall go and watch my WESTSIDE STORY. smile.
us! at wisma.
stupid JAMES POH. dont want to take with us.
Thursday, January 10, 2008 ♥♥
lol. dont know why suddenly mood become happy. haha. guess it was proberly DEAR and my BUDDIES! haha. decided to blog again before i go sleep. LOL. just now skating to hougang cause wanted to meet DEAR. but her mom woke up so cannot. too bad...i took half an hour to get to hougang on skates. freaking slow today. guess my urban skating getting lousier. haha. then meet up with AUG and JY. we went KJ grandmother funeral. cannot believe i went can..well, like geena said, forgive but not forget. haha. add peanuts and leech the food there. haha. then FAMOUS HANDGUN went home. he was the one who called ME and JY out and went home first. haha.
DEAR have a blog man! haha. COPY CAT! haha. but its cool. if we have any dispute that cannot talk face to face then we write it in the blogs. haha! i love my DEAR. just want her to be more caring and understanding then i can leave for army with a peace. and i might make it back alive. haha. IN CASE GOT WAR IN OTHER COUNRIES THAT I MUST GO. haha. thinking too much eh? anyway, rainning god, dont rain later in the day. i want to go SENTOSA. i am becoming like a CHINA BASTARD. till here. goodnights. and one more thing. I FOUND MY SONG I WANTED TO FIND A FEW YEARS BACK!!!! smile.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008 ♥♥
today sure was a boring and unhappy day. was super tired, dont know hwy. so didnt really have the modd to go out. woke up at 12pm and found that DEAR went shopping with her friends in the afternoon. so i watch dvd and crunchyroll the whole day. found a nice show to watch. ha. WESTSIDE STORY. pretty old show. then DEAR meet at my house for dinner. we were so silent. kind of disappointed. my other friends has more things to talk to me than my own girlfriend. how sad can that be. well, i did not care the whole day.just do my own stuff. anyway, i realised that even i talk to her, she would just reply my answer and end of story. so, what is the point. i dont know how i should do to make this reletionship right. i have failed so many times. maybe it is because my ex-girlfriends all cant wait to talk to me or something. but i dont know why my own girlfriend NOW. has nothing to say to me. hias. i feel so empty. its like having a girlfriend and not having one is the same. i also dont know what should i do. i really love her but if this carries on...hias. i really dont know what to do.
and seriously, i hate people who bad-mouth me behind my backs. HEY! IF YOU WANT TO BAD-MOUTH ME! TALK BEHIND MY BACK WITHOUT ME KNOWING OR TALK TO MY FACE! if there is people who so hate my existance or talk bad about me. why not you curse god or kill me if you are capable. if not just mind your own business and live your PATHETIC LIFE alright. cause i find that you are more PATHETIC than me. so please...take your shit some place eles. kind of moody today. so ciao. smile.
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hey blog! decided to blog since i have nothing to do. hmm...actually, i want to blog about is my feelings. dont know why this few days been pretty down. dont know is it because i keep listening to bei pan by cao ge. haha. or is it something eles. weeellll.....i been thinking about DEAR actions this few days. she seems so. i also dont know how to explain. she doesnt know how to put her words right. and yea. i am kind of a sensitive person. so i feel damn what at times. being my gf. haha. i rate her 5.5/10. she is gonna ask me why and alot of things man. weelll. what to do..its a fact. sometimes i got the dont care feeling because of this. i rather not care then keep thinking about it. then when i like dont care she will say why i so sian, why i feel so cold. and all. haha. maybe cause last time all the guys chase her and treat her as gold or maybe something. but now is sort of i treat her as gold also. and more than just a gold. but maybe is my standard of a gf too high. haha. she can be understanding at times. but sometimes she is not. i wonder what is she like when i come out of army. haha. but why doesnt she have anything to say to me? she is like so quiet most of the time with me...someone give me advice. i'm getting so sian this few days. it seems to me like she is just a friend who take cares of me. i seldom see her cheerful. i dont know man. argghhhs....
Tuesday, January 8, 2008 ♥♥
hmm..woke up at 5am today and couldnt sleep after that. so went to play xbox till like 10am? haha. damn fun the game. LAND OF THE DEAD. completed the whole stage two times. easily. =) then went DEAR house at 2pm. was so afraid of her mother can. fierce....then slack at there till 6pm and went TM to watch i am legend. pretty nice show. will smith is a good actor man...haha. it wasnt that shocking and scary to me. but DEAR was so scare. and she didnt know why the people all turn into dark seeker. haha. blur sotong.
then went to find JY at his house and ate dinner. then this group of 4 boys keep looking at DEAR. so i look back at them and one guy after walking a long distance and my food just arrive, he show hand signal ask me come. LAME. or no balls. and childish. kind of stupid. he walk till so far then ask me come. after eating JY went to take parang and axe and we went around to find them. but they are gone. haha. too bad, no slashing today. fighting is lame. but fighting for a cause is not so. thats what i think.
ranning heavily after movie and at JY house. went to sit cab at 11pm. then was kind of piss at DEAR. she say she want to walk in the rain..cause she doesnt want the umbrella. sometimes i dont know what she is thinking. her thinking piss me off sometimes. hias. guess got to wait for her to slowly mature her thinking. anyway, still love her still. (write that cause later you anyhow think again.) yah. her mind is like a water, sometimes low tite, sometimes high tite. GRRRRR...haha. and i spend like $50 plus today can. freaking no money already. and most of the time she is like a silent killer. meaning she can keep quiet for a long period of time then suddenly some of her nonsense come out. =) anyway. am going to play game. freaking sian. just feel like uploading some pictures, they are quite long ago, but memories are hard to forget. enjoy. smile.
they are memories.
my true FRIENDS. but its quite long ago. =)
Monday, January 7, 2008 ♥♥
did nothing much today. except in the morning like midnight? haha. played mahjong with SIS, NAT and JY at 2am. i was about to clear chips on the 2nd round can. then lucky later win back abit. so end up we all lost to JY. haha. that bastard. played till 7am then went down eat and slept all the way till 3pm. haha. DEAR came my house then watched me play game and we watch dvd. nothing much. MAHJONG IS FUN! when you win.. smile.
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HOHO. was happy today!!and sad later. =( slept at 8 in the morning and DEAR came my house at 2pm. and the same old me, sticking like a glue on my bed and she had to drag me to go bath and get changed. wanted to stay at my house to eat before going out but she was afraid that i might sleep again. haha.
went city hall to get her dress but the size was too big. so we ate at mos burger and headed down to orchard tangs to get my jeans. but could not get it. then we went wisma G-Star and saw my secondary school ah beng friend. and got my G-Star jeans. was damn happy. then JY met us at night and went tangs to get another jeans. haha. my 2 G-Star jeans at last! haha.
then heard something, about someone from DEAR. was super disappointed. i have been treating you like i have never treat anyone better before and you turn around to fucked me. this happen 2 years ago. why are you like this? i cannot believe myself. i am serious damn disappointed in you. and i have no interest in you anymore. (you know who you are).
well. the sad part is that i only want to have 3 friends. but one by one. all are getting fucked. by who? by girls. no one could actually understand my feelings. i miss those days. seriously, good things must come to an end. been thinking alot on the train all the way till i reached home. and coculsion is i really want you all to WAKE THE FUCK UP! cause i am beginning not to care about you guys already. my heart has bleed to much blood already. anyway, here are the stuff i got today. HAHA! smile.
Emporio Armani Necklace
G-STAR JEANS
G-STAR JEANS
Sunday, January 6, 2008 ♥♥
(ME AND ANG AT ECP!)
Well, finally got GEENA to do my blogskin for me. haha. althought its not fully done yet but i will try to improve on it. wohoho. well, been sick for almost two weeks, and got better since. cannot wait to go town and get my new year clothes. today got one AX JEANS. pretty nice. haha. but i still want to get my G-STAR. its damn cool. i have found one grey one. and think i going to get one more and tapered it or something. haha. then hang around town with DEAR till 6 and it was pack with people and rain drops! decided to go find RANDY TOH at sengkang because i can't stand the crowd. haha.
pass him somethings and head home for dinner together with DEAR. hmm...i guess i going to hold on to her tight now. not going to loosen my hands anymore. maybe some people heard it many times before, but i seriously think she is the one. and to the someone. getting angry with me or cold towards me is useless. this is life, i seriously do not know who is to blamed, perhaps no one. and if our reletionship is spoilt so easily like this. then i only have one word. DISAPPOINTING. anyway, i miss those times where we were at orchard, just the two of us bringing the world to our feet. am going off to bed now. meeting DEAR tml and heading town to get some clothes. SMILE.
spill.
shout it,
obvious
addicted to you.
Could be your eyes.
Could be your smile.
Could be the way you freed my mind.
Your precious touch caressed my soul.
You gave me everything I need.
And now I'm lost. You said I'm not the only one for you
Please give it one more try for the sake of my love.
Let's give it one more chance cause I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms.
I could never find another like you.
Could be the lies.
Could be my pride.
Could be the days and nights so wild.
Could be the times I wasn't there.
And all the nights we didn't share.
And now i'm lost.
I can't sleep.
I can't live without you by my side.
So cold, So lost without you as my guide.
You made me realise I'm nothing.