just came back from mahjong at grandma house. haha. wanted to meet xm and go sepang slack after her work. but i promised my ah ma i play mahjong with her. and end up i lost 20plus. damn. i played with 3 old ladies. my grandma, her sister and her younger cousin. i think 3 of them add up can reach 200 years old. hahaha. i didnt lose the most. my grandma's sister lost 100 i think. damn kelian when i see her face. haha. luckily my grandma won. =D i seriously cannot imagine me losing my grandma. i already lost one grandma. and both i love so much. cause one was damn protective of me and the other is damn cute. hahaha.
finally got back on my track a little. but this few days i kept thinking of her. and i seriously dont know what to say to her even thought i would do anything just to talk to her again. i seriously dont know why i love her so much. randy told me to faster go in army so that i wont be thinking too much. but i think when i go in army and think of her. i will just burst into tears in the middle of the night. HAHA. i want to get my licence soon so that maybe she would allow me to drive her to school. but i doubt she will cause she doesnt even bothers about me. =(( whatever her reply towards me is either no or idk. what eles can i do right? is either give her up or get a new girl. but i tried and i cannot do that. so how? eat shit and die? oh yeah! thats my favouritephrase when i a, scolding people in dota matches. haha. i think damn lame and damn funny. alright. shall go bath now. byes.
study hard and get good results. all the best. hope you are able to pass your EOY. dont give up.
spill.
shout it,
obvious
addicted to you.
Could be your eyes.
Could be your smile.
Could be the way you freed my mind.
Your precious touch caressed my soul.
You gave me everything I need.
And now I'm lost. You said I'm not the only one for you
Please give it one more try for the sake of my love.
Let's give it one more chance cause I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms.
I could never find another like you.
Could be the lies.
Could be my pride.
Could be the days and nights so wild.
Could be the times I wasn't there.
And all the nights we didn't share.
And now i'm lost.
I can't sleep.
I can't live without you by my side.
So cold, So lost without you as my guide.
You made me realise I'm nothing.