i have decided not to go to her blog anymore. i guess i have been lieing to myself about how her blog would make me smile and laugh. well, i guess i was wrong after today. i was so afraid that somehow, she will write about some other guys name and all. i was so afraid to know that am just another guy to her. i was feeling really really depressed after i saw what she write about her ex today. 1 year...and she still haven gotten over him. i guess i understand how huifang feels after all. i had to admit. but i really dont have a chance with her at all. i used to think that i might have a chance with her but i guess i was wrong. how i wished i could say this to her like some guys do. "if you love the person, as long as she is happy, you will be happy" but i cant. i couldnt take it or imagine she being with other guys. i really love her alot. so, i decided not to go to her blog or text her. but i will still be standing here, hoping for a miracle to happen. i guess i could say that i love and hate this feelings. i never felt like this before. going completely out of it because of a girl. if there is another jeslin out there. a twin. i guess i could call it a miracle.
spill.
shout it,
obvious
addicted to you.
Could be your eyes.
Could be your smile.
Could be the way you freed my mind.
Your precious touch caressed my soul.
You gave me everything I need.
And now I'm lost. You said I'm not the only one for you
Please give it one more try for the sake of my love.
Let's give it one more chance cause I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms.
I could never find another like you.
Could be the lies.
Could be my pride.
Could be the days and nights so wild.
Could be the times I wasn't there.
And all the nights we didn't share.
And now i'm lost.
I can't sleep.
I can't live without you by my side.
So cold, So lost without you as my guide.
You made me realise I'm nothing.