think i got to pace me up and get back in track. dammit. i seriously hate ,yet. sometimes i wonder, why izzit the girls that i love, i couldnt be with them. while those girls i dont love, chase me. i sometimes wish that they could change. is that my karma? i dont believe in karma. if jeslin was my gf. i willing to quit STTR. i seriously do. i dont want to play with another girl just for the sake of being with her. its meaningless.
take yaoyao for example. i already fuck up her life. i dont want another girl to be like her. i'm already down on my knees. head on the floor. begging you to give me a chance, but you just wont. i'm lost. i'm cold. i'm like a living dead. but i dont know. i think that killing would only vent my anger for awhile. i already done alot of things and i think that you wont like. i dont want to be an irritating person in your eyes. got myself a gucci shoe. prada T-shirt. LV belt. but so what? there's an emptiness inside me.
fuck it.
spill.
shout it,
obvious
addicted to you.
Could be your eyes.
Could be your smile.
Could be the way you freed my mind.
Your precious touch caressed my soul.
You gave me everything I need.
And now I'm lost. You said I'm not the only one for you
Please give it one more try for the sake of my love.
Let's give it one more chance cause I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms.
I could never find another like you.
Could be the lies.
Could be my pride.
Could be the days and nights so wild.
Could be the times I wasn't there.
And all the nights we didn't share.
And now i'm lost.
I can't sleep.
I can't live without you by my side.
So cold, So lost without you as my guide.
You made me realise I'm nothing.