just came back from outing with sherwin.aug,kj and randy. well, i went to change my bag with JY at herren. end up didnt go club cause i really feel its no point wasting money. and what? people go there to sleep with girls and dance. fun mehs? so i decided to go hui yi meet sherwin, freedy,edwin and wan rong. they drank a barrel tiger. i think i only drank 2 cups at first. then after that they went out to smoke and buy ciggy. left me alone, enjoying the music.
then there's this waitress came. her name was laura. we talk talk then after that sherwin came back and she went another table. haha. then i ended up drinking with her when she came back to our table. i ended up drink like 5 or 6 cups. then i went out to relax. caus ei seriously hate drinking beer. then after awhile she came out and she asked for my number. cause she want to drink martell with me next time. then we left for park lane, pick up randy,aug and kj. we wanted to play lan but they dont have membership card. and i only can bring one person in, so ended up slacking around. haha. we like drive around for 2hours. so kind of relaxing day lah.
well, your the 2nd girl then i really really love alot. but it seems you doesnt even show abit of concern or what. i guess you just wanted to bring friends with me. i think i know something about myself and girls. they more i fucked care the girl, the more she likes me. and whwn i show them alot of concern and all, the more they kept their distance. i mean i really dont understand girls now. sometimes i admire my friends. they still can like have fun and play with girls cause they dont even have any ex like that. i think its pretty cool. unlike me, i played with girls till i dont know what the hell they are thinking. somemore its the first time i chased a girl with the age gap. i guess she have her own thinking and i have my own. like what jing yang and sherwin told me. at that age and the age is different thinking. but i told them one thing. i cant help but keep falling for you. i didnt want to give up but i dont know what to do as well. and i seriously shows no interest in other girls. just let nature takes it course? cause i dont even dare to ask you out anymore. so how? wendy told me to give her up as well. but i cant help it. so yu tell me how? or you're like randy, just want people to fall for you thats all? thats all i have to say to you. you want to respond to me, i will be grateful to you. so i can get my life back on track rather than sleepless nights. its been a long time since i have been like this, and i hate this feeling. are you seriously that blur and innocent or are you just avoiding and cant be bothered?huh jeslin? i seriously lost all directions in life.
spill.
shout it,
obvious
addicted to you.
Could be your eyes.
Could be your smile.
Could be the way you freed my mind.
Your precious touch caressed my soul.
You gave me everything I need.
And now I'm lost. You said I'm not the only one for you
Please give it one more try for the sake of my love.
Let's give it one more chance cause I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms.
I could never find another like you.
Could be the lies.
Could be my pride.
Could be the days and nights so wild.
Could be the times I wasn't there.
And all the nights we didn't share.
And now i'm lost.
I can't sleep.
I can't live without you by my side.
So cold, So lost without you as my guide.
You made me realise I'm nothing.