hey blog! decided to blog since i have nothing to do. hmm...actually, i want to blog about is my feelings. dont know why this few days been pretty down. dont know is it because i keep listening to bei pan by cao ge. haha. or is it something eles. weeellll.....i been thinking about DEAR actions this few days. she seems so. i also dont know how to explain. she doesnt know how to put her words right. and yea. i am kind of a sensitive person. so i feel damn what at times. being my gf. haha. i rate her 5.5/10. she is gonna ask me why and alot of things man. weelll. what to do..its a fact. sometimes i got the dont care feeling because of this. i rather not care then keep thinking about it. then when i like dont care she will say why i so sian, why i feel so cold. and all. haha. maybe cause last time all the guys chase her and treat her as gold or maybe something. but now is sort of i treat her as gold also. and more than just a gold. but maybe is my standard of a gf too high. haha. she can be understanding at times. but sometimes she is not. i wonder what is she like when i come out of army. haha. but why doesnt she have anything to say to me? she is like so quiet most of the time with me...someone give me advice. i'm getting so sian this few days. it seems to me like she is just a friend who take cares of me. i seldom see her cheerful. i dont know man. argghhhs....