today sure was a boring and unhappy day. was super tired, dont know hwy. so didnt really have the modd to go out. woke up at 12pm and found that DEAR went shopping with her friends in the afternoon. so i watch dvd and crunchyroll the whole day. found a nice show to watch. ha. WESTSIDE STORY. pretty old show. then DEAR meet at my house for dinner. we were so silent. kind of disappointed. my other friends has more things to talk to me than my own girlfriend. how sad can that be. well, i did not care the whole day.just do my own stuff. anyway, i realised that even i talk to her, she would just reply my answer and end of story. so, what is the point. i dont know how i should do to make this reletionship right. i have failed so many times. maybe it is because my ex-girlfriends all cant wait to talk to me or something. but i dont know why my own girlfriend NOW. has nothing to say to me. hias. i feel so empty. its like having a girlfriend and not having one is the same. i also dont know what should i do. i really love her but if this carries on...hias. i really dont know what to do.
and seriously, i hate people who bad-mouth me behind my backs. HEY! IF YOU WANT TO BAD-MOUTH ME! TALK BEHIND MY BACK WITHOUT ME KNOWING OR TALK TO MY FACE! if there is people who so hate my existance or talk bad about me. why not you curse god or kill me if you are capable. if not just mind your own business and live your PATHETIC LIFE alright. cause i find that you are more PATHETIC than me. so please...take your shit some place eles. kind of moody today. so ciao. smile.