i finally found the reason why am still holding on to you. its quite simple actually. if you were to find a billion dollar, would you hold it close? if you were to find a 100kg gold, would you let go? you are my happiness.
Saturday, January 3, 2009 ♥♥
i will wipe away your tears with my blood. i will wipe away the sadness with my smile. i will find the key. no matter how. cause i love you jeslin. and like randy told me. if you are happy. thats all that matters most.
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steamboat with them!the rest were lazy-ing in my room.
look at this small girl.
BOO! at work now. its so boring at night. the weather is cold, there is nobody working with me. =( well...as for my http. nope. she is not my girlfriend. erm. she is just someone i'm crazy over and love alot. and yah. its one sided. so stop asking me about her. cause its depress-ing. =/ was hav-ing mood swings recently. but thanks guys! your lame jokes and lame disturb-ing. piss me off but in a funny way. LOL!
yesterday. went out to meet jy in the afternoon with wendy. walk-ed around in town till about 5? and head-ed down to vivo. sherwin came to pick us up with meiqi. and head-ed to my house to prepare the steamboat. meiqi went home cause idk why. she cant go home late. randy,aug,kj,darren and his gf. i and jy did most of the preparation. =) didnt eat much as well. bert and sherwin came over after while. me,both of them and randy talk about cars like 2hours? i end-ed up so high that i went to drove my mom's car. but i scare she wake up, so i drove half way only. haha. we went to watch-ed transporter 3 after everything was done. jy was sleeping soundly and was disturb-ed by ME! talk to randy alot of stuff. and he say i'm crazyyy after looking at something. jy and wendy was trying very hard to see when we were in the bus heading to vivo. haha. ened up being laugh at. =( no no no good. haha. after movie. its was like 3 or 4am? i forgot the time already. we head-ed to DOME for a game of dota. 4v4. our starting character sucks cause we got ban heros. kj and darren(he played at home) keep kp say confirm lose. randy was sleeping half way through the game. and was woken up by me, with a light slap. haha. and end-ed up winning the game. i guess we are too pro already. LOL! serious! by level 4 our first tower was push-ed. level 6. our mid tower was push-ed all the way in. its a super long and good game. we fought back at the end. thanks to our teamwork. LOL! upload some photos when i get home eh. byebye.
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yeah. i know my http is abit crazziiii. but who cares! hmm..blog tml eh. just came home after a steamboat at my palce and dota.
Friday, January 2, 2009 ♥♥
read your full blog ytd and today. but idk why tear just keep flowing today. i'm feeling so depress right now. i guess until now then i realise-ed how much i really love you. but its just like randy and ym. we cant never be together. no matter how hard i try. i dont know how to entertain-ed people. but i know how to give my everything to you. i know i have promise-ed before. but this type i'm serious. from the moment i saw you the first time. i guess i was attract-ed to you. i will wait for you till you get a bf. cause i feel that anyone who is your bf. is really lucky and you really love alot. randy. can you lend me your shoulder tml? its true. i'm crazy over you.
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spend countdown with surfie baby.
airport!
look at this! meiqi is joke of the day!
look at us! doing this to bert's van! LOL.
stay-ed at home till about 5pm and head-ed down to handgun house. sherwin pick us up and went airport to eat Popeye. sherwin,jy,meiqi,wendy,aug and me! did some shopping at airport while the girls study-ed. LOL! after they study-ed about 1hour plus. we head-ed down to GG. the coms there abit F up. so aug,jy,wendy and me play-ed left4dead. its getting boring. we complete-ed everything. and we play-ed again. DOTA, meiqi dont know how to play. end up quit game with sherwin. sian! LOL! and we did something to bert's van. he is gonna be really mad! LOL! working with jj ka yy tml. byebye! steamboat with all of them tml as well. byebye! i'm getting a car on JUNE. provided i'm able to save money in time. either integra, s15 or WRX(sti).=)
Thursday, January 1, 2009 ♥♥
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEPS! idk what to blog cause am stuck at home. anyway, have fun!
spill.
shout it,
obvious
addicted to you.
Could be your eyes.
Could be your smile.
Could be the way you freed my mind.
Your precious touch caressed my soul.
You gave me everything I need.
And now I'm lost. You said I'm not the only one for you
Please give it one more try for the sake of my love.
Let's give it one more chance cause I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms.
I could never find another like you.
Could be the lies.
Could be my pride.
Could be the days and nights so wild.
Could be the times I wasn't there.
And all the nights we didn't share.
And now i'm lost.
I can't sleep.
I can't live without you by my side.
So cold, So lost without you as my guide.
You made me realise I'm nothing.